Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
I found this image and can't stop staring at it. So pretty..... and NO it's not mine so... for the creative pretty lady who made this awesome drawing, you rock!
A few days ago, i realized that my emotional eating and binge cycle was back. I gained a lot of weight i guess and my insecurities come without any invitation at all. My love and hate relationship with food frustrates me! I want to eat desserts like 24/7 but i'm... getting fatter and fatter each day, and when i'm fat, i tend to be grumpy, super sensitive and easily irritated. I insist to hate my flaw because i don't know how to get rid of it. I don't know how to change!
I know i know my weight was and maybe is the center of my universe, i keep talking about it all the time for years, but who doesn't? I'm a woman, and should i say i have a super high insecurity rate i wish Indonesian rupiah can keep up with it? *jk.
I realize that i'm not one of those "super happy all the time" people, i can hide my feelings sometimes but not too long, i tend to speak up, i'm an aries after all. I'm stubborn and expressive(can i add expensive too here? any amen from fellow aries?). Few years back, i thought that i was the most complicated girl in this world, but no! i am normal, i'm just human(surprise surprise!). Remember the "you against the world" moment? When you think nobody understand you, nobody likes you, nobody bla bla bla nobody!
I realized that i couldn't be happy all the time, and if i could, i'll be the saddest person on earth. To be happy sometimes could be the hardest task of all, if you don't believe me... please try to be happy for other's achievements, try to be happy when your friends got twelve pairs of louboutins for free, try to be happy when a friend of yours got a rich boyfriend and they'll get married this year in maldives and! you're not invited. Try to be happy for your bestfriend who can eat everything but won't get fat and still thinks that she's fat eventhough she needs to alter all of her size 0 clothes because she's too petite.HA!
"Happiness depends upon ourselves" a quote by Aristotle
I found this quote last year i guess or two years ago maybe. The grass is always greener on the other side and if you really understand why, you'll stop being so grumpy and ungrateful! Sometimes you spend days or even years to compare yourselves with others, you waste years of your youth hating instead of creating. Be the center of your own universe, you are the focus of your life. You are the star! 20 years from now when you're older and you need to work because the bills keep coming every month then you'll miss your younger-self, you'll miss the day when wrinkles are just myths and you still have the time to decide your future. Time is impatient, time doesn't run people, time flies! The sooner you realize the better. Appreciate what you have now, because you'll never know what will you lose tomorrow.
"You'll get what you deserve"
Don't expect to be the best when you never give your best. You can get nothing for free nowadays, there's no such thing as a free lunch! Words spoken by my junior high teacher ( i did pay attention sir!) You need to sacrifice something and i freakin' believe in karma by the way. Today is the product of yesterday. You will "produce" something today, or maybe nothing at all.If you act like a couch potato, crying about how ugly you are or how fortunate the others could be without even bother to wash your hair or do your homework, get a grip and do something!
"Breathe.Let Go and remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure", a quote by Oprah Winfrey
Last but not least i have a secret to tell, it's been awhile since i have my tumblr account, honestly last week i tried to change my blog's name because i have an identity crisis(maybe because of the weight gain... hoollaaaa mood swing!) I changed my tumblr url for one night, one effin night and guess what! I lose hippiegonemad's tumblr url because somebody claim it as hers. It's a wake up call for me, sometimes when you hate yourself, you don't realize that maybe somebody somewhere is watching you,your grass is always greener in their eyes and you'll lose something you once had because your too busy wanting more. Be grateful pretty ladies, it's a privilege for me to be here in my virtual wonderland and if you can read my blog then you're lucky enough too! Internet is just a myth in some part of the world and to have 2 hands with 10 fingers is just a dream for those who were born without. Have a nice day and be kind.
Friday, November 8, 2013
Sunday, November 3, 2013
I really wanted to take some pics here in the huge stair near Armani Cafe and store, it's in via Manzoni and you definitely should take some pics to if you visit Milan someday. I love how the super sweet Italians gave me some space to take pics for my blog LOL. I don't know why but i'm so addicted to black and white lately, maybe because i don't have time anymore to mix and match my outfit because i need to go to school almost everyday. Thank you my lovely sponsor frontrowshop for the pleated skirt, love it so much! I can mix and match dozens of outfit with this cool skirt! It's almost winter in Milan and sweatshirt is the most essential fashion piece for chilly weather, i got this one from my fav brand Dignitycloth you can grab this sweatshirt and a lot of Dignity stuff in the BrightspotMarket on 7-10 November 2013 @ Lotte Shopping Avenue if you're in Jakarta and of course for you can buy those cool stuff ONLINE (I suggest you to grab them asap before the brightspot market because last year almost all of the items were sold out). Don't forget to visit the booth and say hi to the owner for me will ya?!!
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Friday, October 25, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
Black Shoes are my guilty pleasure i have a bunch of those pretty babies in black already, but what can i say? grab this 50% off babies off the rack, it's super majaaah right? I don't care about what people say about my obsession towards shoes, i love them, i bought them and i took extra care of my precious babies. Stupid, shallow or materialistic, admit it ladies... deep inside you really wanna look good in those babies. You should dream more and buy a pair of your own rather than calling all of the fashion lover as a materialistic groups of people. My shoes took me to places i've never been before, i met a lot of important and lovely people because of fashion(uh oh i went to NewYork because of fashion too *cough), btw I love high heels and tall girls need heels too(say amen ladies!!)! I never dressed for anybody else but me, so why should i wear flats or kitten heels to make an anon feel good about him/herself? Darling idk who you are but i love you anyway, please love yourself too, thank you for dedicating a few minutes of your life for me. and dear readers.... Are you ready for my next giveaway? or should i wait til christmas?
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Can't stop listening to this song since the first day i found this video on youtube, i love to hear the song while i almost cried searching for my muse and inspirations for my final collection here in Marangoni, wish me luck guys!! I really love lorde's honest lyrics and of course her voice!
We can never be royals... yes, we don't have to be a part of the royal family or rich and famous ones to be happy right? In my honest opinion, each of us will get a certain levels of happiness or even problems and flaws that God thought we deserve or capable to handle. I really am sorry for the lack of post lately guys, i have some thoughts of shutting down my blog lately because of my super hectic school life, but i'm still searching for the best solution here *virtual hug*. i'm in my third /last year here in marangoni and my super kind classmate and photographer too! We're kinda busy right now but i promise i'll post something next week :)