Photographed by Agung Kurniawan
As dreamy as it can be, i have no pictures left to convince you how amazing Fondazione Prada in Milan was, cause i deleted all photos and videos by accident. My clumsiness is boundless i know. But here are some of my long lost treasure from my quick visit to Fondazione Prada. The experience was unforgettable and when i saw this mirror i knew i need to say hi to an old friend of mine, my own reflection, my alter ego, me from the other side whom i often wish could change places with me. My reflection always shows a confident young woman with no bullsh*t attitude. Powerful, long legs covered in all black err thang outfit. But in reality i'm super awkward and tend to do super duper clumsy things. My reflection shows through the lens but at least both of us are the hopelessly romantic woman who knows what they want.
So with Jumpsuit from Sho Style and a pair of Bottega Venetta velvet heels, dear mirror of Prada, who's the fairest of them all??
Heels: Bottega Veneta,
Whether it's a piece of macarons, an A+ scored exam , a long lasting relationship or a couture dresses; good things take time indeed. It took me months to finish this dress, i sincerely and truly apologize to Romi my friend and the owner of designer's wonderland Romitex. I have a lot of reasons but i like to keep all the bad things in my life for myself and let's just only talk about the good things.
Sometimes you just need to put yourself together and deal with the real life chaos. I spend a lot of time waiting, compromising and last but not least fighting for what i want. My expectations towards life are sometimes too high to be reach and to positive to be true. I confessed that my ambition is boundless but sometimes i have too much things to chew and end up choking myself up.
The beauty of life as a human being is that we could bend and not break, killed and survive , hurt but we could also heal or broke down as we wish. Just like the old sayings, "the same boiling water that softens the potato hardens the egg". It's about what you're made of not the circumstances.
As the middle child i fight for the love i thought i deserve, in my mind if i work hard and wait long enough, good things will come eventually. But believe me you , my world is completely different in this very seconds than the same time a year ago. I can't thank my close friends and new found best friends enough for all the hugs, supports and most of all thank you for the truth.
Truth to be told eventhough i projected positive vibes, chillness and can't stop asking you to be kind to each other. My life is less than perfect( i know i know be grateful please cindy), i turned 24 this year and oh Lord Jesus i thought 24 years of life is enough.
But i realized that good things do take time, it also take time to be a good person. To be a whole human being, to be the best version of you. We're like wine, the more we aged the better, the only difference is for me age is just a virtue. The longer you live the more you learn about all sorts of things and i choose to be kind, always. Cause it takes a lot of effort to hate somebody and it's easier to be in the brighter side of life. If you have the biggest problem in your life right now, just wait and choose to be better not bitter. Good things take time good people...
MUA: Anselia Sebastian
Dress designed by Cindy Karmoko fabric by Romitex
special thanks to Ayu Ananto and Anselia Sebastian
Oh boy, here we go again. Cindy you gotta get yourself together girl! Hello world, hello internet, hello digital babes! I can't stop saying hello to everything after i saw the movie "Room" in case you haven't seen the movie yet. It was so beautiful, heartbreaking and eye-opening at the same time. Sometimes if you boxed yourself in a small room full of everything that you thought you need and want. You'll have a blunt vision of what your life is all about or who you are as a person. You boxed yourself in your secret dark room full of nothing and someday you'll realize that your life is passing by right in front of your eyes, there will be nothing left but regret. You were to blind to see, you trust the wrong person, you're too afraid to jump to the other side, you're not you anymore.
In reality as much as you want some things to stay the same, my old imaginary friend Corinne Bailey Ray said " The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same, don't you hesitate " and i believe in her. In order to stay the same, in order to stay sane you need to change some parts or even a big part of your life in order to survive this big and crazy world.
Just like the broken fashion industry where all the creative directors were threw in and out in every seasons. All big brands need a new vision to stay relevant,survive and prosper cause repetition kills. I learn it the hard way that if i repeat my bad habits all day everyday for a year or so, I lose the greatest thing I've had in life. I lost many opportunities, partner and ultimately i lose all of my hardwork for these past few years. I even lose myself cause when i realize that i was wrong and need to change. It's all too late. Don't repeat the same mistakes I've made guys. Believe me you, it hurts like hell and you'll stay there for awhile cause it takes time to heal, to reboot and reformat yourself.
All you need is a new vision and a well planned strategy, plan the risk you wanna take and warm yourself up before you jump. That's what grown ups do or at least the successful ones.
I decided to jump out of my comfort zone, I finally dyed my hair green and blue after all the minimal aesthetic style i maintain these past year. It feels great and liberating, i decided to care less of what people think of me, my personal life and i choose to stay on the bright side, to stay positive and eliminate my bad habits and energy. I learn to step back from a chaotic situation, take a deep breath and ask myself, is this what i want? Is my heart okay with this? Do i need to fight right now? Will the situation changed if i keep fighting? Should i take sometime to re-evaluate everything? Sometimes to admit your defeat is a better option than to fight blatantly , my last advice is... Don't try to fix things alone, at least i need a fortune cookie to figure this out. "You'll get the help if you ask for one", sometimes you need to realize that us as human beings need one another to survive in the jungle. You need someone you could trust, not everyone though... Just a group of people you could trust, if you're lucky enough like i do, they'll help you cause they've been through the same situations in their lives. If not, don't hesitate to ask for help. Find people who are neutral, honest, kind and good. You'll end up digging a deeper whole if you ask the wrong and negative people just so you know. Keep private things private, just focus on one problem without being negative or mean. Be truthful, admit your mistakes and some of your friends will even point out your mistakes. Don't be defensive, you f*ucked up so you need to go through the consequences, you need to re-format your life. With a help or two you'll learn how to code yourself together and start your life with a new vision, same brand, same heart just a new vision. That's it for now i'm signing off... Have a blessed life people and you.... yes you if you read this i hope you'll have a happy, peaceful, prosper life full of kindness.
I was invited to the new Nivea goodbye panda launching party awhile ago in Milan. As expected the event was educative and fun at the same time. We learned a lot about the product and as a beauty junkie I had so much fun! Finally I have a product for my lazy days. With goodbye Panda eye you could clean your makeup and wash your face at the same time! How cool is that? The highlight of the even was the panda tattoo art that you could wash away with the nivea product easily at home. I have no more panda eyes and I hope you could try the product and say goodbye to yours too!
Image courtesy of Nivea Italia
Days like this when you can't think clearly and everything looks sad on you. All you need is a few trustworthy items from your wardrobe. When the world fails you, you'll know at least your sense of style won't. A no fuss, comfy, cozy and no BS outfit. A set of leather clutch and purse with your initial on it, and you're ready to go! Trying to conquer your mind and to distract your heart from thinking lots of things lately. Thank you Vin Koo for the birthday gift, i love the clutch so much. :)
Shoes; Jasmine Elizabeth